Now I have put myself under pressure, because I have invited my colleagues to celebrate my birthday and to say thank you for the presents to Emma's birth.On one hand I like to celebrate things and not let them pass by as a common day.On the other hand many people at my work do nothing at all or just offer some chips and orange juice. This is cheap in my eyes, and I wouldn't want to do this.
So I'm celebrating although I want to live like common people. I want do whatever common people do! I want to fail like common people!
First of all quitting my work would be a step in the right direction. Work part-time or at least something that fulfills you more. Read more, write more, play more music, work for nature, educate, love........
Sounds like a New Year's Resolution.